I am at Haskell. Who would of known? LOL I didn't even do my homework and it is like only the 3rd week of school. :)

I wish my boyfriend hadn't joined the army because it makes me really sad to talk to him everyday on the phone and I know that he isn't ever going to be with me. He is leaving for Afganistan in like june or july and my heart will rip itself out of my body and I will burst into flames and go straight to hell. I am sooo sad without him and I know that it makes me sound desperiate and needy and like such a brat but I don't really care... the fact is I do need him. and Maybe I'm kidding myself but I hope he needs me too. I really wish that he were here with me every single day. He was my best friend and it is hard for me to have to continue without him I feel like I have no options. I don't ever know what is going to happen to him and that is the hardest thing to know. I want him to marry me but he won't....do you think it is because he thinks that I am not right for him.... We have been together for 6 years and I lived with him for almost 2 until he joined the army..... do you think that I am too mean? I keep asking myself so many questions that I don't have the answers too. I really hate having to keep him as my boyfriend if he isn't even considering marrying me is that wrong? LOL I don't know. What ever bye